I seem to keep things to myself.
I keep a lot of emotion locked up inside. I don't let a lot of people in and when I do, I cling to them so they will not go. I know I have some emotional problems that I have to deal with daily.
I know that there are some psychological issues that will never go away.
I try to find the good in people until they crush any hope of goodness I have for them.
I will help most people. Sometimes at my own expense. Like going so far out of my way to take a friend home, as to make myself late or not be able to show up at all for whatever I had planned that day.
I know that my relationships with people are a little messed up. That things I might think about how people feel about me might be WAAAAYYY off. I tend to almost smother close friends. And feeling personally hurt when their lives get too busy to involve me for a period of time. Even tho it has nothing to do with me at all. Everyone has a life. Some might pass over of by ours. But my life is not the only one that needs living.
I tend to get a little too emotionally attached to some members of the opposite sex. knowing this has helped me avoid a few uncomfortable situations. Female co-workers that I get a little too excited to see.
This has not led to anything physical. Everyone knows I am married and to them I am just the "dirty old man".
But I have to know the boundaries. I have to keep in mind, that many phrases, looks, or actions can be taken the wrong way.
I act like a kid a little too much for my wife's liking. Growing up is one of the hardest things I am trying to do. I may never be the "adult" most think I should.
But this is who I am. This is who you have to accept.
I do not know what the future holds. But I do know this.
I am going to keep living like I know what I am doing and remember to every now and then, take a look inside.
